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Planning Changing Thriving

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Last July when I started this journey I made the commitment to myself to grow within and love the skin that I live in. I promised myself that I would travel; take my health back and always be kind to myself and to plan.

Planning has always been hard for me. My soul gravitates towards being spontaneous with each and every moment I can find; which is comical because I have always planned for others professionally and with family and friends. So, I could never figure out why it was so hard.

When it comes to planning for me, myself and I, it has always felt like suffocation and control. I feel like I would plan and plan, but the action never stayed consistent. What I have found is that it wasn’t about the planning; it was about how all the tools I found were designed. The Planning model to me has always felt so rigid. That’s why I was always searching for the magic plan, that one plan that would roll me into action and solve all my problems.

During this past year I have been breathing and thinking a lot. Listening to myself speak and how certain things made me feel inside my heart and brain. The things I loved I kept and the things that didn’t serve me I freed. I’m still doing this, I believe this is the way I’m meant to plan and live. I feel light, not suffocated. Learning to love myself, be kind to myself and share the message that everyone is beautiful and unique. That the very first step to change is to start with the commitment of anything you set out to do will be from a place of love and kindness for yourself.

So, yes I plan “Swiss” style. My style, taking a little bit of this and that that I find along the way in this beautiful thing we call life.  No magic answers, no best way, no E book coming your way, just sharing these words with you and what has been life changing for me in my weight loss , fitness and soul journey.

XO

Alexandrea

Reflection

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It’s been 10 months since I started this journey of wellness. When I started I was at my lowest. I had gained so much weight because I would eat for happiness. I couldn’t wait to get home and fill up my snack plate and turn on a movie. I would eat until I couldn’t move and then feel miserable for eating so much, go to sleep, wake up, go to work and repeat. It was like a scene from Ground Hog Day with Bill Murray.

I wanted to wake up and be done with the cycle of destruction. It had been going on for 4 years, but nothing seemed to stick. I was so miserable and it exuded out of me. I was sad, but could never cry, so instead I would be angry at everyone who loved me and that I loved. I didn’t feel worthy.

It was a dark place to be in.

Today is brighter. I have been putting in the work that is required to love myself.  I feel lighter in my soul and happier with life. I have lost 41 pounds and counting. The weight is so much more than fat lost; it is also pounds of regret, angry and sadness. A metamorphism to a better version of myself, the one I lost somewhere along this beautiful life.

People ask me how did I lose the weight and stay committed this time. What was different? My response is that it started with the birth of a new life, pure love and hope. I took a step forward and made the commitment to “Be Kind to Myself” and believed that the rest would follow.

And the rest did follow. I found and I am still finding love for myself, gratitude, growth and love for my body and life. I found peace and forgiveness for myself. I’m still a work in progress; I will always be a work in progress. I look forward to putting in the work, spreading kindness to others and being a better me for myself and this world.

Life is beautiful embrace it and experience it .

Live your best life in everything that you do.

XO

Alexandrea